I'm 30 on Monday and facing a whole new decade. So my challenge to myself  is to be braver. I've done so many things in the last year that I'd never dreamed I could do, got through moments I never thought I could survive. I am stronger than I thought I was but I need to be braver, need to be less afraid to try. Yes I'm going to fail, yes I'm going to fall, yes I'll probably make an idiot of myself at least once but I might also succeed beyond my expectations.

This isn't some cheesy movie where I start saying yes to everything and my world is suddenly changed. I think saying no is, in the right circumstances, just as important a skill to have as saying yes. But I don't think it'd hurt me to get out of my own way on occasion, to shut down that little voice that says "you couldn't possibly do that" when actually I think I can and, more than that, I want to.

I found a blog I used to write in about 2005 a few months back and was kind of astonished by the honest irreverence of it. I wasn't scared of putting my thoughts out there and whilst the internet is a very different beast these days I do want to try and recapture some of the enthusiasm of my twenty year old self. I've got a whole pile of draft blog posts which I've given up on or been too scared to publish. I could change that for a start...